the d[i]stant hammering [o]f si[n]cere si[l]ences between opposing sides echoes. a war waded with hollow sound though out the spaces in m[y] [s]hattered ribcage. an oblivious light of the shallow sort drowns as we sink beneath o[p]pressing r[e]wound [a]rguements but you pull me into [k]nots and [i]t starts agai[n].
you are not me, i'm not you; [w]e exist in n[o] one place at a single time togethe[r]. faithlessly holding o[n] to y[o]ur taste, yo[u]r smell, you ge[t]s me no where fast and we're drowning again. you haunt the [p]laces w[h]ere we touched, leaving me dying fo[r] more [a]nd now you know i have nothing left to lo[s]e to th[e] fee of
tonight, way over curfew.
instead of scurrying in quiet as a mouse,
i stood on the iced over pavement,
staring up at the stars.
'i wish on you every day,' i pointed
at the brightest one.
'but you still haven't brought him back'
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we promised, didn't we?
then broke them promises.
nothing sugar sweet lasts.
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i don't feel like borrowing phrases to describe
you.
just original, shy, fast, rugged- just right.
we fought every day or almost everyday.
and hey, you were my favourite to run my
mouth with.
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i'm laying on the couch, mindlessly bobbing my
head to shameless music. that's my life now.
i work to get a high off happines
i am sitting with rumpled pieces of paper and my hands stained with ink, as if blood has turned indigo, wringing your name like a paltry confession. and i feel as pathetic as you think i am, i feel as though i could walk across the ocean with salt making my lips sting and i could travel for miles just to get to you, and you would be standing on the other side with empty eyes and you're asking, "why have you come?" and, somehow, you're bigger than me, somehow, you're a giant and i'm forced to look up at you and admit —i don't know.
i have lost my footing. the sky is the earth, my head is underwater and hair dancing with seaweed. i am dro
